The river has been my greatest teacher this year.
When I returned from my Egyptian pilgrimage a little over a year ago, I was told it was time for river teachings.
My strongest calling in Egypt was to the desert - finding the deepest sense of relief in that landscape. Like I was safe for the first time in a very long time.
One morning sitting out there alone (persuading myself not to go walkabout) I bowed my head to the sand in gratitude at having found my way home and I heard her whisper “𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭”. I sat up and thought “𝘶𝘩 𝘰𝘩!”
I remember many of my “previous” lifetimes (time is layered) but a few in particular still echo through my being with such clarity that I sometimes feel more present in them than I do here now. One of them was in that Egyptian desert.
A banishment, a punishment. A lifetime of profound grief & isolation. But I found my peace & power in that desert. And I learnt of my strength.
Upon returning, the whisper of needing to 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 woke me up to a new reality I was being asked to experience. Having come full circle, realising it was time to exit that desert with those gifts and show up fully in a new way - connected & interconnected. It was time to step into my mastery.
And so each day I visited the river. And it was a good year to do that. Through all the seasons, I welcomed its teachings of ebb & flow. I familiarised myself with its water energy. I nourished my body through its drinking. I anointed myself accepting its blessings.
And I started to feel & connect in ways that I’d never allowed myself to before. I let my own waters flow, and I understood the cleansing, nourishing gifts they hold. My dry, hard protective walls began to crack & soften. I started noticing how much easier it was to co-create by the river - in flow, connected to all life, abundant, feeling, flowing - than in the dry isolation of the desert.
I also heeded the call to be a companion to others on the same journey - those waking up to the heart’s call to soften, open, to co-create through feeling, connection, interconnection, through love.
All because I went down to the river…
It whispered in my ear,
You'll never be alone
As an Almighty sigh
Breathed light into my heart...
- Francis J